BINAH: KIDDUSH LEVANAH קִדּוּשׁ לְבָנָה

KIDDUSH LEVANAH קִדּוּשׁ לְבָנָה :

– PRAYER OF CONCESSION ON FIRST QUARTER MOON

Thus, if they feel any remoteness from the Creator, they
call it “bad.” In that state, one considers oneself evil, since an
intermediary state is unreal. In other words, either one feels the
existence of the Creator and His Providence, or one imagines
that “The earth is given into the hand of the wicked.”
Since one feels about oneself that he is a man of truth,
meaning that he cannot deceive himself and say that he feels
when he does not feel, hence, he immediately begins to cry to
the Creator to have mercy on him and deliver him from the
net of the Sitra Achra and all the alien thoughts. Because one is
crying earnestly, the Creator hears his prayer. (And perhaps this
is the meaning of “The Lord is nigh unto all them that call upon
Him in truth.”) At that time “He delivered them out of the hand
of the wicked.”
As long as one does not feel one’s true self, meaning the
measure of one’s evil to a sufficient amount to awaken one to
cry to the Creator out of the affliction that one feels with one’s
recognition of evil, one is still unworthy of redemption. This is
because one has not yet found the Kli (Vessel) to the hearing of
the prayer, called “from the bottom of the heart.”
This is so because one still thinks that there is some good
in him, meaning he does not descend to the bottom of the
heart. In the bottom of the heart one thinks that he still has
some good, and he does not notice with what love and fear he
relates to the Torah and the Mitzvot, and this is why he does
not see the truth.

-Baal HaSulam, Shamati, page 79-80